Another negative

Well, AF hasn't come yet, so I decided to go ahead and take a test. Big surprise...negative. I wasn't expecting anything else really because I didn't "feel" pregnant and the last ultrasound hadn't been promising. Still, I was wishing for a Christmas miracle. At least I'll be able to sip some bubbly on New Year's Eve if I want.

My DH has been talking a lot more with me about all this infertility stuff. It's like he has really come out of his shell in the past few weeks about it. On the one hand, it sucks that we are going through this, but on the other, it is nice to know that we're in it together and going through the same emotions. For a while, I thought I was the one carrying the bulk of the emotional burden, but he has admitted that it has affected him as well. No blame is being thrown, but we are together in our hoping and wishing and we are talking about it more openly now. In fact, I even got him the book, "How To Make Love to a Plastic Cup," which is a book for men about infertility. My DH isn't much of a reader, so I hesitated to get it for him, but he actually said he was looking forward to reading it. I hope it helps him better understand all the jargon that gets thrown out when I talk to my nurse. I have done tons of research to stay informed about everything, but he doesn't really know what is going on, so he just shows up to the appointments and follows along with what is said, then asks questions when we get to the car.

January 1 brings a new year and new hope to us. We are using my FSA this year to pay for at least some of our fertility expenses and hoping that we don't run out before we get pregnant.  We also have a few other goals for 2011 including getting my DH another vehicle before his truck dies, paying off some bills (what else is new?), and losing weight (again).